Wednesday, May 27, 2009
book of rocks
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
of little faith
"People are having a hard time knowing where to put their money...
... or their faith."
If you put your faith in a government, policy, economic system, or candidate, you are truly and seriously misguided. Your very life, freedom, and future hangs in the balance of this decision. Not one of them, no matter how fully you trust, will save you. While you may cast votes and give limited confidence to those who represent your ideas and values, do not cheapen your faith by placing it in a present time or person. They are not saviors, and they cannot rescue you when you finally realize that you need your own bailout.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
day 6

Friday, June 27, 2008
day 5
"For everyone who asks receives;he who seeks finds;and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."(promise of Jesus, Luke 11:10)
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
day 4
"The city streets will be filled with boys and girls playing there."(A promise and description of God's blessing - Zechariah 8:5)

day 3
"This gospel of the kingdomshall be preached in the whole worldas a testimony to all the nations..."(Jesus' promise, Matthew 24:14)
Monday, June 23, 2008
day 2
"My prayer is not for them alone.I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message..."(words of Jesus in prayer, John 17:20)
Sunday, June 22, 2008
day 1
All the nations you have made shall comeand worship before you, O Lord,and shall glorify your name.(Psalm 86:9)
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
giving and going
Dear Friends,
A while back, we began seeking ways our whole family might serve in other areas of the world. We’re excited to set out on such an adventure, and we’re asking for your prayers while we go.
This summer, we will spend a week serving families near Queretaro, Mexico. A local ministry there is is planting a church in the very small town of San Idelfonso. This organization has already helped local Christians plant several churches in Mexico, and is committed to encouraging church growth in this area. They are reaching out in neighborhoods with many activities and ministries, and developing genuine relationships with their neighbors. We will be staying nearby, and working with those families to establish and encourage them. Together, we hope to help a community of grace and truth grow in central Mexico.
For many reasons, this is an amazing opportunity. The various plans of our partners there will offer everyone a chance to contribute on this trip. Even Obi-1 (4 1/2) & Obi-2 (3), will find they are gifted people, sent out to share their time & talents. We’re excited to show our boys, and our neighbors in Mexico, that we have a hope, joy, and purpose worth sharing. Hopefully, these values of “giving and going” will continue to grow in our family.
As we prepare, we ask for your help and prayers. We need safe travels, open hearts (for us and those we serve), and abilities to do whatever is required of us. We’ll also need patience and perseverance while we’re in a foreign place. We look forward to worshipping with new friends, and seeing the church grow in this area. We hope to connect with local people, and demonstrate our faith in real, practical ways. Most of all, we pray that those we meet will see Christ’s love in our lives, and be attracted to Him.
Throughout the week, we will spend time doing outreach, evangelism, children's programs in the park, and meeting local neighbors. We anticipate a lot of walking! We will be fed by friends in Mexico, and relax with friends who join us from the US. Most of our time will be in rural towns, but we will also have a day to enjoy the city of Queretaro. While we hope for a chance to update the blog from the road, I'm not sure if internet access will be available.
If you have any questions or thoughts, please email us or leave a comment here. Thank you for supporting us in so many ways. We are excited to share our stories when we return!
Blessings,
Thursday, March 20, 2008
minivan theology
- What is justice?
- Is justice good? (a.k.a. Is justice scary?)
- What is sin?
- Why do we get to choose to forgive?
- What is mercy?
- Why did God make me?
- Why are Li'l Joe and Cool A our neighbors?
- Why do people do bad things?
- What is compassion?
- How do I forgive my brother?
- What is grace?
- Why didn't God make Larry the Cucumber real? (a.k.a. Why didn't God make vegetables talk? a.k.a. Why does God give us imagination?)
- Why did Jesus die on the cross?
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
going places
This is a big, scary, exciting step in our lives... We hope to go on a mission trip this summer - with our boys. Part of going is preparing, and part of preparing is finding the support to make it happen. It is so humbling to ask others for help, but also exciting to invite our friends & family into this journey with us. While not everyone has the time or interest to travel to other countries in service, many people would like to be part of that effort. So, the following letter is being sent out in the near future. I'm posting it here, to also invite our readers to pray and support this adventure with us.
love,
MamaToo
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Dear Friends,
We hope this letter finds you well! What started as a Christmas letter turned into a Valentine, which now arrives as a little newsletter for all seasons. Needless to say, we’ve been busy! Mr. Kenobi's engineering office has grow faster than anyone predicted, which is a great blessing. MamaToo continues (trying) to keep up with the boys, as they grown and learn more each day. In her “spare time,” she is working on several community and church projects and getting more connected in our neighborhood. Obi-1, now 4 1/2, is becoming quite the “big kid.” He’s figuring out how to read and recently started violin lessons, so we know that activities and school are just around the corner. Obi-2, who is nearly 3, keeps us laughing at his comedic timing, and he seems to mirror his brother’s interest in music. Always the talkers, the boys ask a lot of questions (including the ever-popular, “why?”) to keep us all thinking.
One lesson we’re learning together is how our faith and values are reflected in everything we do. The boys are building their own friendships, which give us all a chance to spend time with new people and practice kindness, generosity, and mercy outside our home. While we recognize we are recipients of God’s free gift of grace, we understand that faith is often lived out in practical ways. We have long imagined what it might look like to teach this to our children by example, and we’ve been blessed by the influence, prayers, and help of many of you. Last year, we began seriously seeking ways our whole family might serve in other areas of the world. We’re excited to see an answer unfolding this summer.
This June, we have the opportunity to spend a little time serving families in Queretaro, Mexico. We are invited to support a local ministry that offers many programs for neighborhood children and their parents. There will be ways for everyone (of every age) to contribute. For many reasons, this is an amazing opportunity. It is an answer to our prayers - and also for many of you who have committed to nurture and encourage our children’s lives. The idea that our boys, even as young as they are, can begin to know they are gifted people, sent out to share what they have been given - well, that is very exciting, indeed.
So, we are looking at the months ahead with great anticipation. Part of our preparation is asking for your help. You’ve offered encouragement, prayers, and insight for our lives and family, and we hope you will be excited with us. First of all, we ask for your prayers. Secondly, we invite you to be part of this opportunity. No, we can’t pack you into our luggage, but we’d like you to come along with us in other ways. This trip will cost about $4,900 in expenses, so we humbly ask you to consider giving toward this goal. Most of this money needs to be collected by April 1st in order to make travel arrangements. While it may seem like a big challenge, we pray you will agree that it’s a worthy investment. If you do want to commit to support us, your money can be sent to our church, which is organizing the trip for us. Please write “Kenobis” on the memo line, and they will also provide a tax receipt for you. We will continue updates over the next several months so you can follow our journey.
Well, that's a quick update on our lives, and you're invited to be part of the future story. We see this short trip as a part of how we’ll teach our children, and many neighbors in Mexico, that we have a hope, joy, and purpose worth sharing. Hopefully it continues to build the values of “giving and going” into the minds and hearts of our family. If you have any questions, please call or email us. Thank you for continuing to support our family in so many ways!
Blessings,
MamaToo & the Kenobi Family
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
going places
Thursday, January 17, 2008
your definition
I think I do know what it means.
Friday, December 21, 2007
tis better
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Monday, December 3, 2007
quote for you
- Carmel of Reno Monastery
Monday, July 2, 2007
buy less, save more
To be fair, I'll state the obvious: the Kenobi household has more than enough.
More than enough space.
More than enough food.
More than enough money.
More than enough toys.
More than enough chairs.
More than enough time.
More than enough beds.
More than enough laughter.
More than enough everything.
I hope that, no matter how much or how little we have, this will be the truth of my heart, mind, and words.
A friend told me about Erika Haub, and I am so thankful. It is beautiful to hear her perspective on life in a very desperate inner-city neighborhood. In a recent post, she commented, “I just don’t believe that every person or household needs to have every thing.” She talked about sharing a washing machine, among other acts of generousity.
Not much later, I read this post , an note to Erika from somebody who inspired and challenged me. The friend was examining her own stewardship, and wanted to make providing groceries for somebody else a standard piece of her household grocery budget.
Two questions hold true for everyone: Do we give? Do we receive?
How do we provide for ourselves? What is our priority for others; the poor, the stranger, the imprisoned, the hurt, the rejected, the forgotten, the lonely, the weak? We are given abundantly as a means for caring for ourselves and others' needs. It's not about giving our leftovers or seasonal needs - we must prioritize both if we are good stewards of all we have.
If we forget this, or deceive ourselves to believe we've somehow earned everything we have, we will hold our money and things very tightly. Circumstance, providence, or choices eventually will take our possessions, and the things held tightest will leave the biggest wounds.
When we hold our gifts with open hands - generously sharing, gratefully receiving, viewing everything we have to be a blessing - we find ourselves knowing true abundance. We will clearly see that all we have is more than enough.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
somebody more like you
so you can see eye to eye
with someone as small as you…
…I hope you find somebody more like you.”
~ Nickel Creek
“Just as iron sharpens iron,
friends sharpen the minds of each other.”
~ Proverbs 27:17
This twists its way into our willingness to hear and see the disagreeable. It creeps into attitudes and schedules, dragging us into dull relationships. We pretend (maybe even genuinely believe) to be open minded, but we end up harshly judging and avoiding anyone who speaks in disagreement with us. We fool ourselves into thinking that it’s healthy to only invest our time and energy in others who are like us. It is not.
We need to be challenged, sharpened, rebuked, encouraged, and engaged.
There is great joy in relationships that challenge my mind and heart. When we moved here, we were excited about our new neighborhood, in part, because it has a lot of diversity. While much has changed in recent years, it still bears scars and honors of its history. I find many benefits of this urban place; I hope perhaps we’ll be less likely to slink into complacency, and our children might witness our faith as more than talk or ideas. There are many who seem to do this intentionally, as Erika’s life and writing from the margins can testify. These are the stories and lives that inspire me.
Sure, it’s more comfortable to be around people who are as right as you are about child-rearing, war, God, marriage, art, work, money, and everything else you find important. It’s also easy for like to attract like because most of us know where to go, how to speak, and how to quickly size others up. We love our spam-filtering, caller-ID, car-in-the-garage world. It’s easy to avoid those who don’t fit our target profile. I want to work against this temptation to cast judgment and cast out.
Maybe you can relate. I enjoy reading. Though limited in uninterrupted time, I’m starting to prefer the paperless options of websites and blogs. It’s cheap and convenient; it's also effective clutter-control! I can easily find current events from every angle. I love recipes I can download and use at-will. Parenting subjects are available at the click of a button, and there are many blogs who can give me a laugh or offer encouragement.
Recently, I was reading Shannon’s blog and a great piece on what she called “Momma Code.” One of its many comments was very honest and vulnerable. To paraphrase, the reader said that she preferred being alone to trying to make friends with somebody who didn’t share her views or interests. I don’t want to slam this woman, because I actually think she’s saying what most of us think: “It’s really not worth my time to invest in you if you’re wrong so often.” Why would we spend our time with somebody who thinks differently than us?
Is it possible that surrounding ourselves with our own likeness might be flat-out idolatry? If we allow ourselves to get too comfy with those who pat us on the back and make us feel “in,” we build a very self-centered culture that will impact many future generations. This is part of my motivation to engage people who force me to think, struggle, and stop relying on myself.
However, I’m sure at least one of my friends is reading this and thinking about a call to be “equally yoked.” While I think that biblical passage (2 Corinthians 6:14) is far too often taken out of context and loosely applied in error, I do recognized the joy and blessing of relationships with those who share my values and world view. It’s just that the legalistic application, (that we cannot or should not engage those who are not “one of us”), seems like the well-rebuked attitude of a Pharisee. I do enjoy friends and read writers who make me laugh or cry or nod in agreement. The Daring One is good for a frequent giggle and nod. Llama Mama has a true gift of style, weaving truth, humor, and honesty in her writing, usually giving me a glimpse of how another woman lives out her faith in everyday circumstances. Maria, through her deeply personal entries, can take me from laughter to sympathy within paragraphs.
Some people may challenge me on one day and speak directly to my heart on another. Should I avoid the occasional disagreements, even on major issues? Is there still value in hearing the other person? I think it’s important to find ourselves in friendships, readings, and discussions that do not always pander to our own views. When Mallory recently wrote about body image in thoughtful and personal terms, I appreciated the challenge to consider my own prejudices, notions, and solutions along with her. Wacky Mommy can make me laugh with her glimpses of life, though sometimes I disagree with her.
I think avoiding people who are different begins with how we treat the ideas and things we don't like. Sometimes we find offense in media, writing, or movies. A common reaction is a lot of hot-air blowing and threats. While I’m not a fan of frequent boycotting, I also don’t go out of my way to see or read something uninteresting. Authors and producers purposely create controversy in order to stir interest and recognition of their work. I think it’s an important skill to recognize when something is basically marketing. I don't want to be trapped by somebody trying to sell or gain from the controversy.
However, this forces me to think of raising children who are lights in a dark world. It is easier, in my mama instincts, to avoid all potential dangers. I want to shield my children from harm. This is our honor and responsibility, as guardians of such precious gifts. However, we must carefully consider the danger of avoidance as well as exposure. There is danger of lost opportunity for spiritual growth, intellectual stimulation, and character development every time we avoid somebody or something that is different.
We grow in faith through the real trials, testing, and wrestling with truth, not theoretical or ideological concepts. As my children enter years of discerning what they hear, read, and watch, and who they are with, I hope I’m willing to get their (and my) minds and hearts stirred. May I rely more on prayer, discernment, and a loving, gracious Keeper of promises, and be released from the traps of avoiding the others.
Friday, May 25, 2007
patron saint
"Maybe you should pray to Saint Anthony," says Grandma K.
"Who's Saint Anthony?" my 3-year old asks.
"Saint Anthony is the patron saint of lost items. He'll take your request to God. Then God will help you find the ear." explained his dearly beloved Grandma.
This drew a thoughtful, scrunched up little face on Obi-1. We've had similar theological conversations at our house, trying to respect his grandmother while sharing our Protestant "direct line" approach to prayer.
After pausing a moment to consider his options, he decided,
"Nah. I could just pray to Pooh."
Sunday, May 13, 2007
anywhere I will go
Sunday morning, we went to our old church before leaving town, and what a sweet time of worship it was. There is just something special about worshipping with people you know really, really, really well - people who've walked with you through births and deaths and pain and joy - and even though our years there were short, we lived a lot of life with those brothers and sisters.
The church has a really cool tradition after communion. The pastor invites all of the children to come up to the front table and sing one last song to the Lord. The congregation joins in and praises and acknowledges our God, who transcends age, season, maturity, and even belief, in a rousing hymn.
I have always loved seeing the various ages of children up in front, singing and wiggling, sometimes dancing or jumping, while the pastor smiles with them and our congregation sings and rejoices. It's such a jubilant way to end a worship service. It's also a scene I loved to watch with my infants in arms, imagining when they'd be old enough to join the other kids. Through the years, I'd observe how other parents craned to watch their child, or stood just feet away, encouraging. I imagined someday that would be us, with our boys growing taller in that front row; eventually they'd be singing along and coming to know all of the words of those beautiful hymns.
And so, with favorite chords ringing from the voices around me, my tears finally spilled over. I had nearly forgotten that weekly tradition, but all of those dreams came back this Sunday, when we realized the boys were old enough to go and they bolted forward with their old friends. I watched as both joined; there in the crowd was Obi-2, with his eyes barely peeking above the table, Obi-1, his chin high enough to see, older kids standing necks, shoulders, and waistlines above, all singing in young exuberance.
Suddenly, I felt like I was watching a dream of deep memories, and all of the emotions brought out by Mother's Day, corporate worship, and an intense sermon careened into each other. Our former pastor - the man who had baptized our youngest son into discipleship - smiled at our little Obi-2, and I relived his proclamation of our family in a covenant relationship with that church and all believers. Here was the pastor who had guided and encouraged us, with the congregation who had loved us and been loved by us, and my children, all singing a vibrant chorus of faith. Suddenly, the words of the hymn hit me with a rush of intensity.
Anywhere with Jesus I will surely go,
Anywhere he leads me in this world below;
Anywhere without him dearest joys would fade;
Anywhere with Jesus I am not afraid.
Anywhere with Jesus I am not alone;
Other friends may fail me, he is still my own;
Though his hand may lead me through the darkest days,
Anywhere with Jesus is a house of praise.
Anywhere with Jesus, e’en the farthest seas,
Telling souls in darkness of salvation free;
Ready as he summons me to walk or stay,
Anywhere with Jesus he will show the way.
Anywhere, I will follow; Anywhere I will go.
Anywhere, with Him beside me, He is there upon His throne
Anywhere, I will follow; Anywhere, I will go
Anywhere, fearing only Him and Him alone.
Anywhere with Jesus I will surely go,
Anywhere he leads me in this world below;
Anywhere without him dearest joys would fade;
Anywhere with Jesus I am not afraid.
As I heard my own voice sing, I cried for all the times I've felt this move wasn't fair. I recalled the months of searching for a new church, and our own struggles in finding our place. The long days and weeks of starting a new office, and how that affects family vacations, weekend projects, and evening conversations in my home. The new friendship that began with an apparent kindred spirit, and abruptly ended weeks later. The weaknesses of my spirit and circumstances feel overwhelming, and sometimes all I want is to go home.
It is so very far from perfect - this faith of mine - and yet it is a real and amazing gift. This whole scene of our children, friends and former pastor served to remind me that Jesus is always with me, always has been, and has promised to always stay. When I feel weakest and stuck in reverse, His strength and encouragement reorients me.
When I sang that chorus through my tears, I was reminded that loneliness and grief are realities of moving away from everything. We feel loss, even of the things we once imagined for ourselves. The song may be jubilant, but it stings from everything and everyone left behind when we move forward in faith. It also proclaims a truth I live out daily - that I am not afraid. I can rest confidently in our Savior's safety and sure of his leadership.
